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Monday
Bound by the Cell phone
Bound : in bonds or chains; tied with or as if with a rope
I recently lost the use of my cell phone. I didn't realize how dependent I had become with this little device that apparently was my life. At the moment I lost connection to the outside world, I wanted to scream... "PHONE DOWN, PHONE DOWN!!!" I tried hand to phone resuscitation, screen and button compressions, along with other emergency techniques. After about 20 minutes, I came to the realization that I had lost it.
I was attached to my phone. I couldn't remember a single phone number except my daughter and mother. I used it to stay in touch with my circle and those hanging on the border. I realized that I was constantly on my phone. Whether it was a call, text, or social app, it was glued to me as if it was another organ. If I forgot it at home, I would make sure to go all the way home to get it. In hindsight, the relationship I had with my phone was toxic.
I have had more time to do other things. I can actually have face to face conversations. I have read 2 books, took a couple of naps, and have gotten more studying done. I am not constantly looking at that little red or blue blinking light to let me know if someone has called, texted, tweeted, or poked me.
This time, though frustrating, has been liberating. I have been forced to break the chain that had me bound to my cell phone. I will eventually get another one in 3 to 5 business days but I refuse to go back to the slavery that engulfed me.
Thursday
I have been feeling as if I am not making any progress in life. Currently, I am on cruise control and it is killing me slowly. Being stagnant is not a very good place to be. I know we have all been in this very place. You wake up one morning and realize that you are in the exact space that you were in at this same time in your past.
I have been focusing on the wrong things in life. My eyes are finally open to the negativity that I was releasing unto myself without even realizing it.
Moving Forward:
Today, I visualize myself being successful in all aspects of my life. I visualize all of my dreams becoming a reality. Not only am I visualizing, but I am also "doing". I have a 30 day plan that I am putting into place. Everyday, I will work towards my very attainable goals. I have been given an abundance of gifts and talents and I will not let it go to waste.
So the moral of the story is...
Focus on what you want to see happen in your life. The more you focus on that particular thing, you will begin to feed it until it becomes a physical manifestation. Choose wisely about what you want to see expand in your life. If you focus on what you cannot do or accomplish then your life will be filled with let downs and disappointments. Change your perspective on closed doors. Find a different route or way. Be positive at all times and continue to climb over obstacles.
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