Give Me Free!

I can finally say that I can breathe!!!

“Freedom is such, that it is desired by every creature. From this we see that it is the soul's tendency and the spirit's longing to become free. Animals and birds, however carefully educated and tended by us, still have the instinct to avoid being confined.” – The Freedom of the Soul

For the last couple of years I have been trapped in an open cage. No one was keeping me there. No one forced me to stay, but yet there I remained.  I could not grow. I could not move. I could not see. My whole life was one big stagnant mess and I did not know how to relieve myself of the prison I created in my mind. I was bound by fear and the unknown. I thought I had security in the familiar but it was all an illusion.

Moving forward when you are unable to see the next step, is a scary place to be. I realized that an even scarier place, however,  was remaining in a space where I did not belong. Not only was it scary, but it was also painful. Every moment that I chose to continue on with my day to day task, led to a small piece of me dying. I did not notice it at first ,but one day my soul screamed, "NO MORE!!!". I felt it from the core of by being and I knew it was time to change my situation.

As, I write this, I still have no clue what the next step looks like. The one thing I do know, is that I am FREE! I am no longer bound by the chains that held me captive. I have been released to fulfill a greater purpose. I am in an unfamiliar land, doing unfamiliar things and I am embracing the unknown daily. I am confidently and boldly walking into my next season. I AM, because my life and the lives of those I touch, depends on it. Someone needs to experience my gift!!! It is not about me and the sooner I press forward, the more freedom my soul will acquire. 

Let your soul breathe! Give it the oxygen it needs to thrive. Set yourself FREE!

When It Hurts to Let Go

It hurts to let go but sometimes it hurts more to hold on!

 

 "Some people believe holding on and hanging in there are signs of great strength. However, there are times when it takes much more strength to know when to let go and then do it.” – Ann Lander
 

When we think about letting go, it can feel as if a piece of who we are is dying. It can be so intense that we don't want to experience the excruciating pain. With anticipation of the end of one thing, we do not even consider the possibility of beginning something new. We get comfortable in our pain until we become numb to the ache. We begin to bleed! We continue to bleed! We bleed out and we slowly begin to die inside.

We have to open our hands to receive all that is promised to us. Closed hands will not do anything except keep what it already holds and most of the time, the thing we are holding is toxic enough to destroy who we are. This behavior is what leads to the fear we create in our mental spaces.

 

Fear has a way of keeping us trapped in an open cage. Fear can be paralyzing for most of us because we have no clue what the other side looks like. It consumes us to the point of creating mental and physical bondage.

 

I have come to the realization that I fear success. I fear being in the spotlight. I fear being seen. I fear not being good enough for what I have been called to do. I fear not living up to other's expectations. I will not, however, let that fear keep me mentally or physically bound. I will create an atmosphere of courage within me by continuing to move while fearful. Courage is not the absence of fear. It is having the mentality to do IT anyway!